I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I say I’m content with life, and I essentially do feel that I am but at the same time I’m not. im stupid…………….
i loooooooooooove crying myself to sleep.
I’m such a shallow human being.
i’m worthless.
I’ve got what I wanted, and it’s going pretty good. But why am I still so unhappy? What’s missing? I need someone to help me solve my puzzle… ugh. I don’t know anymore.
Yeah I like being ignored it makes me feel fucking awesome. I see no point of trying, talking, breathing… worthless, I’m worthless.
Watching all these cool choreo videos makes me wish I could dance. Man, I wish I could do hip hop choreo AND still have my singing/instrument talent… :c
It’s hard walking around school knowing people are staring at you not cause your pretty, but because you have a very obvious flaw on your face. The people who know me in person, know that I have very red eye lids. It’s natural, not eye shadow. It’s caused by my eczema, which is a skin condition I was born with. I’ve had these red eyes since about the beginning of 8th grade, it gets really bad during cold weather and sadly, winter is my favorite season. It’s been really bad lately, if you look at my eyes, the outer parts make me look like I’ve been crying for hours, but I haven’t. It’s hard to make eye contact with people since I feel very ugly and repulsive but I also don’t want to be anti-social, which I’m not btw. I just feel so insecure.
It makes me feel pathetic knowing that you moved on so fast while I haven’t even found anyone for myself. Maybe it’s because I’m fat and ugly, and no one wants to date me. But even if I did find someone, i probably wouldn’t give them a chance since no one will ever replace you. I just want you. Can you just love me back, please?
It hurts imagining you with someone else besides me. I know, I’m self-ish. I want you all for myself even though I have no rights to say that since we’re not together anymore. It’s hard to imagine myself with anyone else but you. I can see myself going everywhere with you, and having those cute moments like those couples do on tumblr… lol. When I’m walking down the isle, I want to see you standing across from me. As both of us are gazing at each other from a distance. I wanna have fights with you, so in the end we can both laugh about and become even stronger. I wanna grow old with you, and look through our old pictures while we’re sitting on our rocking chairs holding hands. I want us. I miss you. I hope you still think about me.
I wouldn’t mind being dead right now. There isn’t any point of me being alive I’m just stupid and ugly and fat and nothing anyone needs. I don’t need to be alive. I just wanna die. Everyone just makes fun of me. I hate myself.
sometimes I feel like my punishment is being alive. I’ve wished so many times to be dead, but it never happened naturally and I don’t have the courage to kill myself because I don’t want to go to hell.
